On Feeling Unwanted

Hello… just hello!
This is more for me than just for you!
My working crew
My mind, my heart 
My muscles my thoughts
About everything that i gave 
And all that i received
About me being the straightforward 
Calm not twisted, 
Ever ready to fight your fights
Ever ready to believe your side of the story
Ever ready for your dreams
Not because mines are not important 
But mines are secure
In my righteousness 
In things that I don’t fully believe
But somehow they do believe in me
This is to set myself up straight 
Again and again
Along with trying to straighten up the world
Yours and mine!
This is for all the days that i was left thinking
Sinking! And shrinking!
In the abysmal image of your crooked mirror
Where everything is twisted and stretched 
To fit! To sit! To be engraved 
Through repetition, repetition, repetition
Not the truth i see
The one That you don’t talk, don’t share
You Don’t speak up about what is fair
Nejse! 
Leave it hidden down there in
The wounded eyes, the pierced soul
The fractured ego, crippled but bold
How different your life would be
If you’d respect your thoughts accordingly 


I guess that is the price to pay
I felt unwanted but allowed to stay
Allowed to be but there on the verge
Just to take a look but not to touch
Just to talk but not to listen, 
And you to be you without restrictions 

Just breathe in the love
breathe out the hope
No space for me in that crown of dust!
No space to reconcile
No April to enjoy
The ring takes another meaning
The future that you had in mind
Now creates another feeling
I have yet to start, again and again
Holding my anger, while being a good friend
I felt unwanted and that can not change
No matter what you throw into the range



Written, Voiced and Edited by Besart Cani